I had another crappy night last night. I couldn't sleep however I also re-programmed my phone last night so slightly constructive.
I was very low last night. Guess not being well, the lonelyness and the bad news yesterday don't help things.
I feel guilty about my Grandfather passing away. I haven't been in touch at all over the last couple of years. I had meant to phone them this period, but with hospital admission I didn't make time.
Death is a strange subject. I guess with losing friends through CF I have come to expect it. But never sure how I should react to it.
I sent a text to N last night, asking if she was ok. She said not as her DO had taken the day off work. Seems strange, 1 month into a relationship and they are not having a nice day off together. I hope they are ok, and sort themselves out for the best. I was hoping to speak to her last night as I needed a close friend. but nothing. I have had two texts today from her so she didn't bother reading any message from me till 16 hours after I sent it.
I guess it shows that whilst I hold her in the highest regard and would do anything for her, the feelings are not reflected in the slightest. Shows that I'm a muppet for thinking that I am important to her.
I'm still very tired from hospital so having a lazy day today. I'm sat in front of Star Trek box set in dressing gown. All my washing is almost done. Looking forward to a nice meal out tonight with some good friends.