Monday, March 19, 2012

Struggling

This post is a bit of a downer.  My mood has been very up and down lately.

Over the past few months i have been finding life very difficult.

Currently I am doing the following.

Working 3.5 days per week
UNI 1 day per week.
Thats 37 hours over 4.5 days

I go bowling once or twice a week.

then I have house work, car clean, washing etc.

Now for a healthy person this is pretty easy life.  I should have bundles of energy and going to the gym and going out socialising.  Unfortunatly this really tires me out.
A close friend of mine has told me of the spoon theory.  My understanding of this is that a person has x amount of spoons available in a set time period.  each activity takes a spoon.  As you only have so many spoons available they can run out quite easily.
I feel that at the moment I deplete my spoons just doing some of the above.  I should also be doing UNI work, and having a social life.
This past weekend I went shopping with a friend who came up from London.  After this I was completely knackered and fell asleep on sofa.   The following day I had a trip to the new Silverstone wing arranged.  I got up early and went to Silverstone, followed by a visit to CostCo.  After this a was so tired.  When I got home I ended up wiped out for the rest of the day.

Something has to change.

I can not complete my final year of Uni.  I cannot do the extra work involved to get assignments and dissertation done.
I have spoken to the UNI and hopefully they will allow me to defer the dissertation till next year.  *fingers crossed*
Once I have finished UNI I will then approach my employer and see if I can reduce my hours.  I don't think its a good idea to do that yet as they won't pay me my salary  whilst me only beling there 3.5 days a week.

In the meantime I just need to get the two remaining modules done.

Fingers crossed.

Added to this.  My chest is not looking good.

Hospital within a month.

1 comment:

  1. The Spoon Theory: http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory-written-by-christine-miserandino/

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