This post is a bit of a downer. My mood has been very up and down lately.
Over the past few months i have been finding life very difficult.
Currently I am doing the following.
Working 3.5 days per week
UNI 1 day per week.
Thats 37 hours over 4.5 days
I go bowling once or twice a week.
then I have house work, car clean, washing etc.
Now for a healthy person this is pretty easy life. I should have bundles of energy and going to the gym and going out socialising. Unfortunatly this really tires me out.
A close friend of mine has told me of the spoon theory. My understanding of this is that a person has x amount of spoons available in a set time period. each activity takes a spoon. As you only have so many spoons available they can run out quite easily.
I feel that at the moment I deplete my spoons just doing some of the above. I should also be doing UNI work, and having a social life.
This past weekend I went shopping with a friend who came up from London. After this I was completely knackered and fell asleep on sofa. The following day I had a trip to the new Silverstone wing arranged. I got up early and went to Silverstone, followed by a visit to CostCo. After this a was so tired. When I got home I ended up wiped out for the rest of the day.
Something has to change.
I can not complete my final year of Uni. I cannot do the extra work involved to get assignments and dissertation done.
I have spoken to the UNI and hopefully they will allow me to defer the dissertation till next year. *fingers crossed*
Once I have finished UNI I will then approach my employer and see if I can reduce my hours. I don't think its a good idea to do that yet as they won't pay me my salary whilst me only beling there 3.5 days a week.
In the meantime I just need to get the two remaining modules done.
Fingers crossed.
Added to this. My chest is not looking good.
Hospital within a month.
The Spoon Theory: http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory-written-by-christine-miserandino/
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